Numb 1
Definition: Enfeebled in, or destitute of, the power of sensation and motion; rendered torpid; benumbed; insensible; as, the fingers or limbs are numb with cold.
One of these days, I was ready to contact scientists and offer them my brain for studies. Sometimes I feel that it's impossible for anyone to simply disagree with almost everything around. I'm not talking about bitching or the need to go against the flow, but I genuinely have a strong opinion about almost everything I lay my eyes on. I don't spend my time in search of issues to discuss, but somehow they come my way naturally. While many people will do anything not to get into a discussion of debate (which I consider to be mutually beneficial exchange of information) I'll volunteer to enter one, for the love of rhetoric! I believe debates helps us formulate our thoughts for others and for ourselves. This is one of the reasons I enjoy engaging in the classroom, at a social gathering, or online. Without communication one might as well give up life.
I have some core moral values that are the base for my rational thinking. They were mostly shaped as I was growing up, through my studies and readings and views from people I admire and trust. Although I consider myself a strong-willed person, I'm not stubborn, I'm persistant. I defend my point of view tirelessly. At the same time, some of my thoughts will never be shared because I think they'd just stir too much confusion around. Or because I just value them too much to give them away to people who wouldn't be able to put it to good use or who could understand what I mean with them. I come up with 3, 4 thoughts for blogging ,daily. By the time I have time to write a post, I already moved on to something that caught my attention, or I decide not to share it. I value people who can share most of their thoughts and feelings on their blogs, but I'm not sure I could be one of them.
I wonder how it is to feel numb. To not feel anything, protected from excitement and from pain, not enjoying the glory, but also not having to put up with the nonsense. Do you ever feel like shushing life away to enjoy some peace and quiet? I often hear people say that I should let it go with the news, with my friends, with family, with the world. How can anyone do that? Although we can limit who and what has an impact in our lives, at this point, it'd require too much effort to clean up all the sources. If I could feel numb, would I want to feel this way? I sincerely can't remember any moment of numbness in my life. People usually say that the shock of losing someone dear makes you lose your ability to react. My grandpa died years ago, but he was 91 years old and he lived a good life. Besides him, I've never lost anyone (knock knock) really close to me.
I'm indifferent if a something is not worth of my time, but indifference requires thought, evaluation. To be indifferent to something you first need to acknowledge it. Numbness, on the other hand, doesn't let you feel anything at all. There's no judgment, because you don't think or reason about anything. I choose to feel. I don't think the experience machine would make anyone happier. Shushing yourself from the world doesn't change the fact that it's still happening. You can choose not to follow it, or not to respond to it, but it is still out there, other people will have reactions and the only one left behind will be you.
News, are not so new anymore. The world is changing at such a fast pace, that it's impossible not to feel overwhelmed. Internet helps connect billions of people around the world, it spreads information, it also shows us information which we wouldn't have known 20 years ago. And if we didn't know, we wouldn't automatically feel inclined to agree/disagree with the topic. Not that I'm required by any major force to have an opinion, but it's something that happens instantly for me. Sometimes I feel I have sensory overload. There's simply too much happening out there and I don't know if I want to keep up.
I wonder how it is to feel numb. To not feel anything, protected from excitement and from pain, not enjoying the glory, but also not having to put up with the nonsense. Do you ever feel like shushing life away to enjoy some peace and quiet? I often hear people say that I should let it go with the news, with my friends, with family, with the world. How can anyone do that? Although we can limit who and what has an impact in our lives, at this point, it'd require too much effort to clean up all the sources. If I could feel numb, would I want to feel this way? I sincerely can't remember any moment of numbness in my life. People usually say that the shock of losing someone dear makes you lose your ability to react. My grandpa died years ago, but he was 91 years old and he lived a good life. Besides him, I've never lost anyone (knock knock) really close to me.
I'm indifferent if a something is not worth of my time, but indifference requires thought, evaluation. To be indifferent to something you first need to acknowledge it. Numbness, on the other hand, doesn't let you feel anything at all. There's no judgment, because you don't think or reason about anything. I choose to feel. I don't think the experience machine would make anyone happier. Shushing yourself from the world doesn't change the fact that it's still happening. You can choose not to follow it, or not to respond to it, but it is still out there, other people will have reactions and the only one left behind will be you.
News, are not so new anymore. The world is changing at such a fast pace, that it's impossible not to feel overwhelmed. Internet helps connect billions of people around the world, it spreads information, it also shows us information which we wouldn't have known 20 years ago. And if we didn't know, we wouldn't automatically feel inclined to agree/disagree with the topic. Not that I'm required by any major force to have an opinion, but it's something that happens instantly for me. Sometimes I feel I have sensory overload. There's simply too much happening out there and I don't know if I want to keep up.
